I’ve spent a lot of time thinking over the past few days. The long weekend gave me enough time to contemplate on certain issues that have been bothering me for quite some time already. Life has been harsh lately. Fate is challenging my every decision. Justice is being lazy. And let’s just say Luck doesn’t come by as often as I want it to knock on my door. I think a change of strategy needs to be in place. I think the one I’m employing right now is failing me.
Actually, I find it very frustrating already that a lot of things are not going my way and the external factors that contribute to the pressures of irony are steadily increasing. Sometimes, I feel like I’ve made wrong decisions even though they seem to be 100% logical and right. Thing is, I’m not happy with how my life is right now. Come to think of it, it’s not really about being happy. I think it’s all about being satisfied. And I’m no where near satisfied.
Answer: None of the above.
I want a better career and more time for self-development. It helps clean up the whole picture when you accomplish things. Big things. I want to be a better person. Have a little more freedom financially. Be more random. Like buyi myself a new mobile phone. Not just any new phone, but a top of theng line model with a heavy price tag to boot. Or ice skate. Or read a good book. I want to do stuff I don’t do anymore, like play soccer or go to the gym. I just want to be happy like I used to.
Sigh. But I think I need more time developing my little life project strategy. Things should be dealt with accordingly. In due time. Hopefully things will, one by one, fall into place.